Is it ok to masturbate to Reddit models or is it a sin?
First off some context: I’m a single 19M and became a Christian in December last year, and then I stopped masturbating completely for about 3-4 months this led to me having nocturnal emissions every night for a solid 2 and a half weeks at least and since then I have masturbated a few times and sometimes I feel incredibly guilty and sometimes I don’t.
Usually when I masturbate I like to look at certain Reddit models who post naked photos of themselves and link their OnlyFans in the post so it’s all ethical, unlike pornography, but every time I feel like I want to masturbate and then subsequently start viewing some of these models content I start to feel incredibly guilty and anxious because I worry that I’m not going to go to Heaven when I die because of this. So my question: is what I’m doing sinful and will get me sent to Hell? Is the guilt and anxiety I get beforehand the Holy Spirit trying to make me stop? I’m not going to bother asking in any other Christian sub because I’ve seen other similar stuff in those and it’s either trolls or just “you are sinning, remember in Matthew when Jesus said looking with lust is adultery!” But I don’t really understand that because I’m single so how can I commit adultery?
I’d also like to add that viewing these models content doesn’t make me view women in any perverted or misogynistic way and it doesn’t stop me from speaking to them normally either
Thank you everyone who responds, this is something that’s been troubling for me some time now