Help. I’ve gone crazy. Do I really have ADHD?
Im 27 and I fear I might have ADHD. I lost control of my life after high school. I messed up college to the point I had to do another year. I have devastating social anxiety, to the point I make up shit just to avoid meeting people.
I make up stupid scenarios in my head in which I am the main fucking character. I sometimes talk to myself. Get all worked up to the point of holding my breath. In all my grand stories that I make up in my head, I’m always the hero. Guess I do this to make up for the shitty irl life that I have.
I don’t have many friends. I can’t gel with anyone. I can barely make conversations. I can’t look people in the eye. I shake my legs like crazy. My head’s a foggy mess. I can’t even think anymore. I’m constantly overwhelmed by life. I keeping thinking I’ll do better tomorrow. But it’s been 10 years and that “tomorrow” is just as elusive as it was then.
I can’t work properly even with a gun pointed at my head. I forgot how to smile.
I’m literally at my wit’s end. I don’t think I can take this any further.
Do you think I may have ADHD? If so what’s the next step? Should I consult a specialist? But then I’m not sure if they diagnose correctly, coz a lot of people say they just prescribe medication and may falsely diagnose.
27 years in this fucking world and I’m just falling deeper into the abyss every day. Idk what to do anymore.
Pls help. I desperately wanna stop feeling so overwhelmed, so foggy, and yet so empty at the same time :-(