Hey (english is not my first language i'm sorry)
I have been diagnosed since like a month now
And i've always been scared of needles so at the the hospital i've always thoughts that it will be my problem here
But when the nurses where pricking me (idk if that's really the verb LMAO but like, injected me insulin ?) it's didn't hurt so i wasn't really scared of it anymore you see ?
The first times when i was at home there were really no problem, at maximum i stressed for 10 min before injecting the insulin (there was just one time where it whent really bad, like a anxiety attack sort of thing for 30 min)
So yeah thats was all, just two or three times where i got some sort of anxiety attack
Until a day where needles where hurting me REALLY BAD, i asked gpt (i know chatgpt is not the good way lmao but i got no one else this time) and it said to me it was probably the fact that i injected the insuline to often on the same "zone", and in fact i pricked me in the left tigh or in the left of my stomach. And just after i tested to the right and yeah it wasn't hurting anymore
And, now, it's re starting to hurt really bad, like even when i'm just touching my skin with the needle it's hurt abnormally, and on all the parts of my body where i used my needle (so right/left tighs and my stomach, on the left and right) and i've always try to not use the same parts two time in a row-
And like i really can't do it now, like because of the pain i can't prick me
My family say "it's in your head" i don't even what does that even mean but for them my pain is not real
I've already call for the nurses for the first time it was hurting really bad and when i got this sort of anxiety attack, all they said to me is "it's weird but you need to do it !" Like ok i know ??
So i'm just asking here, if it's normal to being hurt this bad by needles and that i'm just weak or if really something is not normal ?
Some people say to me to try using my arm, ok but really fast it will hurt me too so i don't think it's really the solution
And for the title, i said "phobia of needles" because i don't know if my pain is real or just that suddenly my fear of needles has reappeared and that my brain is creating a false pain (yeah it's sound really dumb but that all i can think of when we say "it's all in your head" to me ??)
I'm sorry for the looong text with probably a lot of grammar error, thank for reading it tho !
I'll probably tell the nurses again, because the fact i don't inject me insulin since a few day, will probably be more urgent for them, i hope tho lmao
And so i just want to know if everyone are hurting themselves like that with the pens or if i don't use enough parts of my body or if i just have a problem somewhere like a weak skin or a thing like that idk ?
And the needles i use are 0,23mm/4mm so i think they're already the tiniest one ?
(I really don't know if the verb "pricking" is the right one, google said it so- . But it's seem weird to me, i just hope everyone understood what i meant with this verb)
And i hope everyone is feeling good here because diabetes is hell LMAO <3