i'm a smaller person. i'm 4'11 and weigh about 80lbs, i worked with adults who have disabilities/autism for 2+ years and loved it. i didn't realize working with children would be so different, partially my fault for being so weak physically and not realizing, but I can barely lift kindergartners onto the changing table bc i'm so weak. i had a student elope into an area he wasn't supposed to be in so i tried to lift him up to take him back to class, and couldn't. i can barely push big wheelchairs..
the other paras have been so sweet and help me when they can, but it's embarrassing. i wish i could but i don't think i can do this. i just don't have the physical capabilities and it makes me so depressed. i can't do this anymore for my physical and mental health.
also, i'm only making $21/hr and my agency makes me work at two districts that are an hour away from me. even though i asked if i could work in the county i live in. i'm only making like $85 a day when you account for gas (i'm in CA) it's just not worth it. i will be resigning today.
edit: typos, sorry i'm kinda going thru it lol