u/LUVLVN

ugh. what a day. but it just isn't today. every day since I've been hired, a year ago, it's either someone or something that has a thing against me. I just moved to this area from across the country. everything about the area is great, I'm not religious but I would say I'm slightly into politics?

so i moved to a very Christian area and I am covered in tattoos... I bring this up because one of my coworkers said the reason they didn't like me (pretty sure they still don't like me) is because of the tattoos I have. they were bullying me when I started, so I talked to my manager after a week of said bullying and now it's all fake kindness if you know what I mean. the reason why I even started working there is because this person who was super sweet, kind of befriended me when I was just a customer. since I started, she now gives me mean looks, attitude through the wazoo over the simple things... and I swear everyone else does too. for example I try making conversations and a few of them completely ignore me or just talk about anything else which I hate because I have never felt included here before, unless it was training and I was with this girl for a week just having conversations. then she left right after lol

since then we had one other person join our team and legit the first day we hit it off, talked about life stuff and I got emotional because I never thought becoming someone's friend was in my cards at Starbucks. it was a great few days. but unfortunately to me, they became friends with everyone else and now doesn't talk to me. we used to text outside of work, make plans to hang and now everything fell through and they don't talk to me at all anymore. I just feel so left out. i have only hung out with one person outside of work and to my surprise it wasn't for the kindness of their heart. we went to brunch and for the first part was normal conversation, but the second half was just about how they wanted me to attend their church and how I could be a better person by going. how am I a bad person?? I don't get it and that frustrated me because I thought that was going to be a cool friendship without religion being involved. I just feel like I'm at my wits end. I respect everyone I work with, I follow standards, and in the year I've been there, I only have called out twice, never been late or anything. I just wish I could have some friends tbh. ugh why is life so hard as an adult when I'm just trying to be nice 🙃 thx for letting me rant internet. sorry I don't have anyone else to talk to lmfao