Hello,
I’m 28 (F). Lately, I’ve noticed that I feel emotionally disconnected from the people in my life. I don’t feel the natural desire to call or check in with people who are supposed to matter.. like my mom, dad, grandparents, or others who were major parts of my childhood. Reaching out feels more like an obligation than something I genuinely want to do.
When I talk to my mom, I get irritated or angry really quickly. I try not to react that way, but it keeps happening and I don’t fully understand why. With my dad, it’s different, but I still don’t feel the urge to reach out. Honestly, if people aren’t around, I don’t feel much about it. Even when others lose someone close to them, it doesn’t hit me the way it seems to affect everyone else.
I don’t know if something deeper is going on mentally or if I’m just exhausted by the people around me. What I do know is that I want to be better. I want to understand myself, reconnect, and not feel so detached. Part of me wants to go back to how I used to be, and another part of me wants peace without feeling pressured to talk to anyone. I’m trying to figure out what’s happening inside me so I can grow and move forward in a healthier way.