I need some serious advice.. how do I tell someone why I have a pacifier?... someone close to me helped me out and seems some things didnt want them to see and they wont stop asking about it...
So my best friends mom has helped me out more than I could ever explain... I lived in my own home that I destroyed... I got a new apartment I mistreated and now I'm in a new place and she helped me clean it... I told her not to buf she went ahead and started cleaning... well she grabbed a box and said "is this garbage?" My kites were in there and a few pencils I liked... but my pacifier was also in there... I quickly snatched it and the markers and she looked me dead in the eyes and said "why the fuck do you have a soother?... you know what.. I dont want to know-.." I tried to say "oh I don't know I dont know" but I did not play it off well... AT ALL...
So she came over and had beer and kept cleaning.. well i hate to say it but I buy my "gear" from LFB which is sadly a kink site.. anyway.. their gear comes with panflits/catalog booklets... I went to the bathroom, came out and saw her flipping through it... I'm terrified and idk what to do...
Before she left I thanked her for helping me out and she said "you're welcome friend" and gave me a huge hug and went on her way... but she wont let it go
She is someone who is... not conservative but old fashioned if that makes sense.. she supports that I'm trans (ftm) but also is one of those people who say "trans people never existed 30 years ago" she also thinks "how do we know pictures of the earth and.planets are real?" Sorry for ranting... but idk what to do