Do I keep believing in manifesting my SP back by myself or do I leave it upto God's will? Or shall I do both?
Hi.
I am a 21 y/o female and my SP is a 21 y/o male.
(Disclaimer: My language might be unclear a bit bcoz I just wanna type this out as soon as I can)
So my SP ( boyfriend of 7 years) had broken up up with me in the first week of September 2025 and we got back together in the first week of November itself, exactly 2 months and 3-4 days. So two weeks into the breakup I discovered manifestation. I had a very low self concept and kept blaming myself for what I said to my SP which caused the breakup(some disrespectful words). So we are studying in a different state from our home and when we went back home in October for study holidays, things changed. I had been pining for his mom to call me home for food(she was unaware of our relationship at the time). Bcoz I saw that as a chance of being alone with him and getting intimate and making him remember all the good moments. As soon as I had given up and 5 days were left to go back to uni, his mom called me. And so I went to his place and things happened and he told me that he might consider getting back together with me. Since then he was obsessed with me. He even asked me if I had manifested my obsession with him just like I was trying to manifest him back as I had told him. So we met once again at his family's place and didn't do anything, but I think his attraction and everything else just grew. And eventually when we went back to uni, we got intimate once more and then on the last day of exams he asked me to get back together with me when we had gone to stay out. So 4 months since then, smooth sailing.
Now coming on to March 20, 2026. He had been pissing me off by being lazy and I blocked him twice and said I'm breaking up, he was still joking around but he got serious and when I gave him the option to either put in efforts or stay, he said he can't continue. And since then I've been miserable. He has got together with 3P who had actually become my close friend since Feb. They got together on the day of our break-up or a day later. And the funny thing is I think they were still at the coffee place when the breakup happened. She had called me for coffee coz she was feeling low but I declined as I had already had breakfast, and I wanted to help my boyfriend with his college work. So she then asked him to come. And I was pissed bcoz he went as he wouldn't do his work then. He apologized for it later, but didn't agree to get back with me. She was someone I was insecure of bcoz she is very touchy, but as we became friends, the insecurity went away.
So yeah he has been posting stuff on social media and I have deleted Instagram and I am not looking at his WhatsApp Updates.
Now coming onto my beliefs. I think my self concept is much better than last time. However I wonder whether I got him back just bcoz I had manifested meeting him at his home and solidifying the path to reconciliation. Like I was just pining on his mom to invite me and that everything would get better.
After we got back together last time we told his mum and aunty about us and they were quite happy. Now I have been relying on them for emotional support during these tough times. They are Catholics, I am not. But I have been strongly attracted to their faith. They have given me good advices. They tell me that whatever happens will happen for the best for me and I'll be the winner. However they talk about destiny and say if it is in my destiny, I will surely get it.
Now I find that law of assumption is basically assuming what you want to happen and this newfound religious inclination of mine has been interfering with LOA. I'm really confused about what to do. I've been praying everyday for the past 4 days. Btw sp hasn't told me about 3 p and he mostly just ignores me. Our exams will begin on the coming Monday. We will be going back home in 3 weeks.
I am really confused with what approach I should go ahead. Either I purely manifest or purely leave it in God's hand( so that sp learns a lesson and comes back to me) or I believe that God is supporting me in whatever I assume or want to create. While we were together when he used to be ungrateful to me or take me for granted I'd tell him that no one will be like me and tolerate him. And he used to say you never know, there might be someone. But I know for a fact that there isn't lol. This rebound nonsense of his gets to my head sometimes but I am not that bothered. I have some limited beliefs or fears which I don't want to state here or say aloud with the fear that it could come true. Also if I assume that these limiting beliefs will not happen, is there a chance it could occur just bcoz I thought about it?
Please give me advice guys, I'm fairly new to this, till the breakup LOA had been working for me well, but I'm stressed out now and so conflicted between religion and manifestation.
Also suggest any subliminals or rampages or anything that does work.
Guys please pray for me and give me advice. If things go smoothly then we'll be celebrating our 8th anniversary in July, please pray for me guys.