u/Kunok2

Pictures:

1st two pictures were from the day when he came to me, the rest of the pictures are from his last day, second last picture showing how bad he was looking and last picture his grave.

DISCLAIMER: In this post I'm going to be talking about Happy's backstory, what he was like but also about what was wrong with him and the topic of euthanasia, if you don't want to read that then stop reading when you get to the disclaimer I'll put before that part of this post.

Happy's backstory:

The same day when my beloved pet rabbit passed away to RHDV, in the evening I found Happy standing on the top of the aviary. It was July 4th 2022 and the weather was pretty gloomy. After catching him I noticed that he had a legband with the number 13 - the year of his hatching, meaning he hatched in 2013 making him 9 years old at the time I took him in. At first he was a very quiet, reserved and shut down bird and he didn't like being handled, but after weeks since taking him in he started warming up to me and started opening up and stopped being completely mute, eventually he turned into an extremely friendly, loud and confident bird who also turned out to be attracted to only other males. I'm unsure if he was actually a male or not but he sure did behave like one and he never laid eggs. He was one of my friendliest doves and the friendliest rescue dove I had, he was also one of the few doves who didn't mind wearing a harness and enjoyed occasional pets which is extremely rare. I named him Happy because he would do happy foot stomps every time when he was perching on me. I appreciate all the time I could spend with him, because he truly was an amazing bird and I wish he could have been here for longer, but that was not the case...

Happy's decline:

A bit over a month ago I noticed that Happy was acting odd, but he didn't show any signs of illness, he just seemed to be slower and not his usual self, but I Knew something was wrong but at the time I wouldn't have imagined how bad it would end up being. Several days ago he started to decline rapidly, he became extremely skinny despite eating, became even less active - he was a completely mute bird again and he stopped doing happy stomps too. He also started sleeping in nests huddled up to other doves while being extremely fluffed up and shaking - meaning he was in a lot of pain. So I picked him up to check up on him and I felt a huge lump inside of his abdomen.

DISCLAIMER: if you DON'T want to Read this part then STOP reading here, because it will get graphic.

The difficult decision and what was wrong with Happy:

Since the day I found out about the lump I knew it was really bad and that he won't get better, that he will only keep getting worse and currently was in extreme pain and the next few days proved me right because he kept getting even worse every day. After a lot of thinking and consideration, I have decided that the biggest mercy for him would be Euthanasia, it was the better choice between letting him die slowly and painfully and giving him a last great before he gets too bad to want to eat and to be able to enjoy things. On his last day which was May 11th 2026 he got to eat as many sunflower and safflower seeds as he wanted, as well as a suet ball and a toxic flower which he wanted to eat for some reason - he got nothing to lose anymore so he could choose to do whatever he wanted. I also took him outside on a harness which he enjoyed a lot, he got to walk on grass for the last time ever and he also got to see the forest and perch on a small tree while listening to the birdsong - at least for a short while he could forget about his pain and he could have fun, but after returning him back to the aviary he went back to being constantly fluffed up, eyed closing and shaking out of pain. It was an extremely difficult decision for me and it was even more difficult to do, but it was the only way I could help him, help him stop the extreme pain he was in and I also wanted to be with him until the end. There was no other better choice... After he was gone I decided to do a necropsy to know what exactly was wrong with him and if it was something that could have been prevented. In short, it wasn't and it further confirmed that my decision was right. He had a huge white solid but rubbery puss-like mass in place of where his testicles were supposed to be and it was ingrown into his pelvis, I've never seen anything like that before and it looked horrible, it was literally taking up most of his abdomen and even if I had the best vet ever available they wouldn't have been able to save Happy. After that I went to bury Happy in the woods.

I'm heartbroken and it feels like a part of me has died and there's a big void inside of me, he was one of my most favorite and closest doves and now he's gone. But knowing that he's not suffering anymore and that he could remember nice things as his last moments gives me solace, he also lived up to 13 years which is close to the minimum average lifespan of 15 years for ringnecks, I know many doves weren't that lucky and I'm happy with my decision even though it was so difficult. Obviously I'm not okay, but I still have the rest of my flock to care for and my aviaries will always be open to any doves or pigeons in need of a great permanent home. Happy also inspired me to hopefully build a sanctuary for elderly doves in the future where they could spend the rest of their lives happy, loved and safe.

For anybody in a similar situation like me with Happy, know that you're not alone and that giving your bird a last great day of their life if there's no chance of them getting better or recovering is sometimes the only thing we can do to help them, as much as it sucks and as painful and difficult it is. For those whose birds are okay and still have years to love, please make sure you spoil (of course only as much as to still keep your birds healthy) your birds, love them and give them the best life ever, they live only once and they deserve living their best life. You never know when will be their last day, they might seem like just a part of our lives, but we're their whole life.

He kept throwing the piece of spray millet out of his bowl and accidentally knocking it off of my desk, so I just left it on the floor and put Zazie also on the floor and it kept him busy for a good half an hour.

One of my Antherina Suraka caterpillars changed colors and is very restless. I'm pretty sure it is ready to spin a cocoon, but my question is should I separate it and if so how should the setup be? Do they have any requirements for pupating?

TW: The third picture is a picture of dead caterpillars.

I got them on 28th march as freshly hatched caterpillars and some of them have remained the same size for a long time now or have been growing extremely slowly and just a few days ago I found one of the stunted ones dead, yesterday I found two more of them lifeless. I feed them privet, lilac and spindle, the last two seemingly being their favorites, I get all of their food from clean areas without any risk of chemical contamination. My Antherina Suraka caterpillars have been growing nicely and don't have such huge size differences among them, same goes for my Death's head hawkmoths. Antherina Suraka are also fed the same privet and spindle plus prunus leucocerasus and the Death's head hawkmoth caterpillars get just privet so far. I also clean their enclosures often (when there's too much poop) so I don't think any bacterial bloom or mold could be an issue.

Could the cause be poor genetics or am I doing something wrong? I've read that Ailanthus silkmoths suffer from inbreeding a lot because of how commonly kept they are by beginners so people don't take care to get unrelated stock.

Lately several people have been asking about how bad silky doves are at flying so here's a video. The range of how bad they're at flying depends on how strong the silky gene is, the silky in the video has one of the strongest expressions of the gene out of my silky doves so he's pretty bad at flying. He can fly only as high as you can see in the video but he can glide several meters horizontally.

Silky doves Can fly better if it's windy though, even though they might not be able to fly well under regular circumstances, they can take off under the right conditions - do not put your silky dove in danger by taking it outside without a harness, carrier or other safe way of bringing them outdoors, especially when you're taking your dove somewhere in public or anywhere where there are potential dangers.

NOTE: he was taken outside of the aviary only for the purpose of the video, as you can see he really wanted to go back to the rest of the flock so he was trying to fly back, it was the only way I could make him fly, when in the aviary he sticks to walking on the ground most of the time. After I took the video he was reunited with his flock.