Is self-taught just a myth? Because figuring out otherwise passed-on knowledge by myself seems exceedingly difficult.
I realize how much importance technique plays. And so does whatever else comes along with it — posture, expression, intensity, memorization tricks, breathing etc.
I've been watching content around music theory since I started playing. But consuming and understanding are different things.
My learning has no structure. I just copy from synthesia, or learn from sheet music. And all of it is intuitional, ambition-based, like an amateur — with no structure to look forward to.
It feels like I'm trying to climb a mountain without tools but a bunch of ambition to climb it.
How can I be a teacher and a student at the same time? Will I even be able to learn what an actual student would be learning with a teacher? :(
Edit: I've begun to read sheet music and I am able to learn music from it. I also understand that chords and scales form such a big part of it. But do I understand how music was developed, how the composer possibly intended it or how I'm supposed to interpret it at my level and possibly come out with a better me after learning a piece? No.
I could just consume loads of stuff from the internet and it still wouldn't make sense. It would be me just second-guessing learning by the supposed gained confidence and knowledge from the net. And that's the worst part about learning from online, you NEED to be a good receiver inorder to receive information the way it was intended to.