Hello, I live in a country where the majority is Muslim. A few years ago, I came to believe in Jesus Christ. I’ve read the New Testament, but I don’t know much about the Old Testament. I’ve never attended a church for worship. I don’t even know if I have the right to call myself a Christian. All I know is that I feel the love of Jesus Christ in my heart. I believe in Him and I pray in His name.
Lately, my prayers have decreased. Maybe I don’t even fully know how to pray. I feel like I’ve grown distant from Jesus Christ. But considering everything I’ve said, maybe I was never truly close to Him in the first place. Still, I feel deep guilt. I’m tired of giving in to bad thoughts, of feeling far from God, of living carelessly.
I feel like this often, and when I do, I want to turn back to Jesus Christ again. But seeking Him while feeling so faithless makes me feel hypocritical and insincere.
How can I truly enter His path the right way? Can you guide me? Is it too late for me? No matter what I’ve done, can God still forgive me?
Please don’t judge me, and please pray for me.