Some sketches that are somewhat irrelevant to ES
Figured I should post something so that people know I haven't killed myself yet. Also feeling demotivated for the past few weeks. I also haven't talked to Creamy for a while now, which crushed me even more knowing that our relationship is very likely to nearing its end.
I am never mentally okay, and I am constantly in the state of hurt. Been taking frequent night walks to the highest point in my education facility and staring down for 15 minutes on average. I've no longer a clue as to what to do in life. I no longer actively seeking death due to the demands of my friends, but I have been wishing for my demise to come. I couldn't take me out by my own hands, but I'm ready by anything else.
No, I don't want to be comforted seeing as it will only look like attention seeking. I just needed to vent things out, especially since I am incapable of doing so on my own main Twitter/Bluesky account. I barely gain any traction there, either. It genuinely demotivated me with art as well, since I always wanted to grow my own community where people actually spend a few seconds interacting with me.
I've no words left. I would love to poke more fun with ny "Ali x Nora" propaganda and argue over custody of Pooka against Poppy, but I am back to where I was 2 years ago. Suicidal thoughts and sorrow lingers in my mind. I couldn't get them out. I don't know if I'm repeating myself, but I haven't tried hurting myself yet. I don't know. I really don't know. I'm sorry.