dropping my lifelong dream
My life up until this point had been super turbulent to say the least so I've not finished a single degree. When I finally got stable and happy and thriving I got sick :/. I made the hard decision to drop out today & I am pretty heartbroken cuz I pushed myself so hard the first 6 months, I was a straight A student & I was doing so good. But since January I've been in a bad crash and lowered my baseline together with insanely debilitating brain fog.
I am so heartbroken over the fact I can't finish my studies right now, especially cuz it's something I love so much. I feel like a useless part of society & I know cognitively that's not true but I don't know how else to feel right now. I don't have a degree even though I am cognitively capable and I don't have the capability to work either. I had big dreams and I was also the expected gifted daughter but instead I am sick.
It's so hard to deal with grief but I also feel relieved. I don't know. How do y'all deal with this?