I have faced this problem from very young age in every stage of my life. I don't need attention but I need recognition. My family, my relatives, my friends group even my academic life, in every field I have been lacking recognition and acknowledgement. I have a older sister who have an excellent achievements and extremely intelligent. I am not really that intelligent but I am good at what I love and even my academic achievements are good but family nor my relatives really care. Everyone only cared and acknowledge my sister. I try my best to be on her level but my efforts are never seen by them. All they do is nit pick every single mistake and embarrass me. I really want to be close to my cousins but ig even they only like my older sister.
I had a really good uni friends but now eventually we are getting distanced and I'm getting left out. My professors suddenly started disliking me and keep retraining my future opportunities. It's like I'm fked everywhere.
I don't really understand why this happens to me all the time irrespective of where I am and with whom I'm with. I am not a rude person, I'm not even socially awkward. I just don't understand what is exactly wrong.
I know how to overcome this feeling but I sometimes run into circles and wonder why this is so repetitive?
Am I the only one who has this situation? Does anyone know how I can turn the tables?
Lil advice would be helpful. Thank you so much for reading.