Got triggered by a movie.
A little context, I was abused and neglected as a child by my biological father and this is the first time my trauma has ever been triggered and I didn’t know what was happening.
My family and I watched a movie on Mother’s Day called Mother Dearest about a couple of children who were abused by their adoptive mother. I have no idea why they wanted to watch this but we did.
Half way through the movie I started feeling restless when the mother was yelling and beating her daughter with a coat hanger.
I got up, yelling to my brother to take me home. My mom was confused and I yelled at her that I don’t want to watch a movie about someone abusing their children and listening to her “act like she’s sorry but not really bullshit” my dad (adoptive) got mad at me for being rude so I apologized and went outside. I then started crying on the curb while my family was watching. It was embarrassing so once I had a moment of clarity I cleared my tears and told them “I’m sorry you had to witness that.”
I’ve never experience this and didn’t know I could be triggered but this was a wake up call that I really need therapy.