So just yesterday I was talking to this guy that I have a crush on but also like having as a fwb and I think my overthinking caused us to now move to platonic. So basically I asked him to go watch the Michael Jackson movie this weekend, but I didn’t want it to seem like a date so I invited a mutual friend of ours. He was confused about it and asked why and I made a reason about not seeing this mutual friend for a while but also didn’t know if he was OK with just us going. He replied with a sexual joke saying did he want him to fuck me or they spit roast me and so I said no “I want you to fuck me” he then said nahh and I replied that I wasn’t ready from last time (bc I wasn’t expecting us to hookup after going for a walk) and do penetration (Me bttm, him top). So he knows what I’m talking about but says “No it’s ok I think we should stay platonic anyways”
This tore me inside bc I was waiting to fuck after the first time. So I’m needing help on should I ask him why? And what’s he thinking?
Basically we’ve been talking for about two years on and off trying to meet and we finally ran into each other at the bar a few weeks ago and met face to face. Got invited to his friend’s dinner the next night and met some others and me and him were cuddled on the couch. A week after we finally hangout one on one going for a walk and then we kiss and make it to his place. But one thing is, he is talking to a guy and told me last week when we hung out( but I kinda knew bc he had mentioned it at the bar to my friend and his friend mentioned it to me and my friend bc we stayed until they closed and my crush left early for work. ) But we were sitting on the bench looking at the stars on our way back to our cars and cuddles and somewhat made out for a sec and he grabbed my pants as if we were about to fuck outside. So like what changed? He also said something like he felt like an interference to the guy bc he’s in med school so that takes up a lot of time. I’m sorry this is super long but I’m really confused and feel a little sad now after what he told me last night. Guys please tell me what you think of the whole matter. I’m still good with being friends but the sex tho😩🥺.