Weird Interests and desires as a kid
Before I start, I don’t want to sound insensitive to anyone who 100% sure has experienced this kind of trauma. I respect you and I’m not comparing my situation to yours at all. I’m just simply wanting opinions on this. I’m 18F and I had very strange interests as a kid. I would fantasize in my head about being a baby in diapers, being fed oatmeal, and being treated like a baby, kind of in the way adult babies (as a kink) do. It was different than just wanting to be treated like a baby again because it made me feel *that feeling* when I thought about it. This is when I was about 5 or 6, so i really don’t understand where I got this idea from. When I was about 8 or 9, I would go on YouTube and watch rape videos or documentaries intentionally seeking out for them. I watched them so much I became afraid it would happen to me, specifically from my dad because that usually would be the perpetrator in the videos. (My dad has never been abusive in anyway) I do not remember any sort of sa happening to me when I was young, but I am wondering if maybe these weird interests came to me from some suppressed trauma I have or maybe I was just a weird kid with obvious unrestricted internet access.