u/Key-Cryptographer-90

Hi, So, I'm a non-EU woman, recently graduated from my Masters in a STEM degree and also worked as werkstudent and Hiwi. I graduated in March this year without a fulltime offer sadly. However, I got an offer from my supervisor to apply for the EXIST BUSINESS grant scholarship with them as the Technical Co-founderin. To get all the information, I consulted a few people who had gone through this process and even reached out to my uni's startup hub. There are some pros and cons of this. Like I would have to convert my visa to self-employed visa and it can be difficult to stay here with this visa type. Also, you never know if we would even get the funding or not and if the startup becomes an actual company in the future. So, many questions I have and I'm confused. I haven't said yes to them yet. I'm keen on getting all the information first and then decide.

Has anyone ever gone through this ?

Can you share your experience?

Anything that I need to keep in mind ?

Incase we do get the funding, can they support me in the language as well ? I have telc B1 and planning to reach B2 by this year.

Future Plan is to get fast track citizenship. 2.5yr as Student + 1 year of this Grant + 1yr of Mentorship from social institutions( I have given free technical mentorship within my uni to junior students) + C1 (somehow). Is this possible? Please don't be mean to me. 😭🙏

Maybe I'm overthinking a bit too much but I feel like I need to get it out of my system. I'm feeling a bit stressed about my future. I'm a 26F, moved abroad for my Masters, finished my Masters, switched my career from Tech to design and now pivoting towards learning AI as both Tech and design seem to be dead. I'm also in the process of finding a fulltime job which seems very daunting at this moment. I'm scared for my future. I come from a middle class family so I can't expect financial support from them again. I also feel like I'm not as competent enough to find a good fulltime job here. Although I have gained experience from different companies on contract basis/internship but none of them converted to fulltime. this month I also started a another internship as an IT Intern and it seems like it might not go well either. My skillset is very diverse and surface level maybe due to undiagnosed ADHD but I get so overwhelmed and burned out when working overboard or trying to push myself. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not built to be smart like my brain just cannot grasp complex concepts. I miss social cues too and I expect people to give me proper instructions on what to do exactly, what tasks to do like a list ? But it seems like they just expect you to be some kind of a genius who knows their shit. I don't know how am I ever gonna find a job. Phr partner bhi dhondna parega. I am always struggling financially and I am always expecting to get laid off right after I'm hired cuz I'm really strong on paper with my resume + certificates + references...All those achievements don't replicate to me when people meet me in real life. I have trouble making eye contact, my voice shakes and I try not to cry or get a panic attack. Sometimes, in order to overcome anxiety, I pretend to act cocky and confident, giving people a mixed and confusing impression of me. kya hoga mera. 😭😅I just want a stable enough job so I could afford cute clothes, makeup, korean skincare and go back to drinking matchas and ice tea. But that seems like a very far ahead dream now. 😭😭