this hasn't happened before and for some reason it happens for every mesh I've tried to upload today. I've uploaded hundreds of meshes in the past, so not sure why this is happening now? i don't think its the mesh itself that's the issue, because like i said, it's happening for every mesh i try to import into studio today, including ones I've imported before.
TW: SUICIDE
This feels stupid to talk about but I need to get it out of my system
I played Doki Doki Literature Club a year or two back when I was in early 7th grade. And I think that this game has traumatized me. I can't stress enough how much this is my fuckin fault for playing the damn game in the first place despite many, MANY warnings and disclaimers. I honestly love this game and I think it's a great concept that was well executed. But Sayori's death, man. I don't even know if i was suicidal yet when i first played it, that part of my life was so damn convoluted and foggy that i don't remember. But all I know is that whenever i think about Sayori's death, I spiral and I freeze up. This feels stupid, this is over a stupid game, that I probably never should have played in the first place. I'm over suicide, now, and I'm happy to be alive at this moment. But I can't help it. Even with suicide behind me, thinking about that death scene makes me quiver and tense up. I feel helpless and nervous, I hate it. It takes me about 5 minutes to recover myself from it and act normally again.
Hearing the soundtrack is even worse. It shuts me down almost completely. It feels like i can't breath or move, and I start shaking like I'm cold or something. I feel like I can't do anything at all.
As much as I love DDLC, the characters, the storyline, and the passion that went into making it...
I wish I'd never played it. It's my fault. I shouldn't have. And now this stupid shit happens. I feel so invalid and upset. I just hate it all. I don't wanna die anymore, but i feel like i can't escape the period of my life when i did wanna die.
This is stupid
It was only a video game