Ive had brain fog for 6.5 years and seen everyone: multiple neurologists, functional neurologist, im on my 4th functional med doc, allergist, rheumatologist, etc. Ive tested my gut, hormones, etc. Ive "fixed" my candida, h pylori, whatever. Ive optimized my nutrition, exercise, and sleep.
And u know how much better I feel between now and 6.5 years ago? 0. Zero. Nadda. Nothing. If anything, I feel worse.
I am now testing my house for Actinos and mold (...again, clean the last time) because I have elevated MMP-9 and atrophied brain regions. And after this my doc wants a $500 special blood test and $300 cone beam scan. I do trust this doc, but, god - it sucks because right now I have an 0 for whatever, 100? track record. And so the math would say Im just throwing my money away. But I also cant just do nothing and accept my fate at the ripe age of 38. And then today my sister was saying something that alluded to the fact that shes a millionaire and here I am trying to figure out how to scrape by n pay for these wildly expensive tests or even just my f-ing copays.
And this is on top of incredibly severe dry eyes (yes, ive tried literally everything) and an ailing senior dog. And we r in a drought. And im probably gonna be fired from my job cuz I cant function.
I dont know what I hoped to get out of this post. I just dont see any hope. And im so tired of struggling and working hard and getting nowhere. I would have even accepted 10% better. Or even somehow if the tests said nothing was wrong. But, no. The tests show something is wrong just no idea what. And im here fighting every day and failing. Im so tired.