u/Kakistocracy5

When I was 18 (29 now) I had what I believe to be a legitimate yet unexpected kundalini awakening experience while doing practices from one of Mantak Chia’s books. As a disclaimer, I don’t recommend anyone do those exercises without preparation and guidance from a qualified teacher. In other words, don’t mess around with them unless you know what you’re doing, otherwise you might be asking for trouble, which I learned the hard way.

I was able to move what felt like a large amount of energy from the base of my spine through my spinal column and into my brain by doing what I think is a variation of the Taoist/qigong microcosmic orbit. It involved using the mind, squeezing the pelvic muscles near the perineum, and rolling the eyes up in an attempt to draw energy up into the brain and skull. At the time, I had absolutely no clue that kundalini was a real phenomenon; I had never even heard the word, nor was I particularly interested in pursuing these exercises beyond simple curiosity.

In the way these exercises are presented in the book, you’re supposed to be able to bring or draw the energy down from the head through the front of your body by touching your tongue to the roof of your mouth once it’s raised. Well, that has never worked for me. The energy and pressure sensation has remained inside my skull ever since, and it’s very uncomfortable much of the time.

In all of my years of research, I’ve never found a clear answer as to whether or not the energy is supposed to remain inside the head or if it is supposed to go somewhere else in the body. What’s the end goal? Is there an end goal?

Since late 2019, I’ve occasionally given speeches to local law enforcement for their crisis intervention training programs for dealing with mental health crises in the community. I have a significant mental health condition which I’ve recovered from to a large degree and have been through difficult times in the past that sometimes required police intervention, so I’m well aware of the challenges they face when dealing with these situations. I feel very strongly about sharing my story to raise awareness and help de-stigmatize these disorders, and I’ve found that I have a talent for speaking and answering questions.

I’ve mainly focused my attention on speaking to law enforcement, but I’ve also spent some time speaking to groups of families of people struggling with severe mental illnesses to offer them hope and a different perspective on their situations.

Virtually every group I’ve spoken to has responded very well and are also very engaged during the Q&A sessions that I usually hold at the end of the session.

Right now I’ve only spoken through an organization called NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), but I’m getting to the point where I’m wanting to expand my presence and influence beyond NAMI. I’m just not sure which direction to go in from here.

Any suggestions or advice would be much appreciated.