Hi! 20ftm
just a small waring i might talk about abuse, but nothing too bad.
I didnt really know what subreddit to use for this question, as throughout my life ive never beeen hit in a non-joking way. So not a ptsd or abuse thing. I grew up with my dad and i play fighting- we had a rule of 'if you hit me i hit you' but he never hit me as hard as i would hit him or ar least purposefully. Mostly it was just play fighting or like throwing socks or somthing at me, nothing that could actually hurt me.
There has been a couple times i can remember that he hit a bit too hard by accident. But it was like still play fighting-
Im in college now and i dont see/live wirh my parents as much and am just starting to notice things they considered normal, which my friends tell me are not.
Anyways my question, i like flinch violenty at things, like my friends just holding things near me and ill flinch, and it like really scares them. I know they wont hit me but it still happens, i dont feel scared in the moment but my body still reacts... Idk i dont think i have any underlying abuse that could have caused it-
Also, unrealted i suppose but im 100% sure my mother emotionally abused me for most of my life- but never hit me
tldr: used to play fighting with dad, never been physically abused, but flinch violently even at friends. dunno why