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Moments
They are
Random,
Anticipated
It doesn’t discriminate
Its presence can
Both
(In)visible
Shit—
These moments
I don’t even recognize myself
Or that it’s happening
It’s never the same
It’s ever evolving
I find myself repeating words
As if it’s a mantra
One I don’t feel empowered by
As much as I try to break free
I cannot
The more I fight, the faster
My
Words
Breath—
My mind
Under siege
As each line of this mantra happens
It reinforces
Crushing shame
Rapid
Words
Rapid
Breath
This reminds me that this is all new
I haven’t learned this just yet
Fuck—why can’t I be normal
Entrenched I am
With tears
This is my mind
And the worst—
Embarrassment
For God’s sake
You’re grown
You’re strong
In this moment
I feel neither