u/K4ttana

to sum it up, ever since i was little my dad has worked/lived in china and me, my mom and brother in another country. My mom never worked since my dad made enough and also never wanted my mom to work. My mom found out my dad was cheating on her and she tried to make it work but a few years later they got divorced. My parents got married and divorced in china so theres no legal requirement for my dad to pay the divorce settlement and so after they divorced my dad started cutting the money he was giving us which caused me to drop out of school at 14, apart from not going to school i lived fine for the next 2 years then when i was 16 my dad cut even more money and we couldn’t afford rent anymore. Technically ive been homeless for 2 years but At the time my mom still had some money so we were able to stay in airbnbs/hotels for a while but then she and my dad cut contact and ive been living in the airport for 6 months now.

My mom is Christian and believes God will supply us with enough money somehow and our life will suddenly be okay so she doesnt want to get help from others, but shes been saying that for months now so im kind of losing my faith and if i bring it up to her she just gets upset. the police know about my situation because i was arrested months ago for shoplifting food and told them everything, they referred me to a social worker and the social worker just recommended homeless shelters but the homeless shelters here suck which is why theres so many homeless people living in the airport. I was 17 at the time so i had no say as a minor and my mom denied the help anyways so that was that.

I dont have any irl friends to help me since i dropped out at 14 and ive lost contact with everyone. I have online friends and an online boyfriend the same age as me in the US who gives me money for food sometimes and my brother is in the army so i have enough money for food from that.

I cant get a job because it requires an address and since i dropped out of school at 14 i dont have any education degrees that will get me a job to make enough money, even if i did work it would just be enough for food, i mainly just want to find a way to move to the US permanently since i have many friends there, my bf is able to pay for my flight but other than that hes 18 too so I cant live with him/find a way to stay permanently. Everyday i just feel more and more hopeless and jt just feels like dying is the easiest solution

Sorry for the messy post i just trying to make sure i got all the info down so my situation makes sense…hopefully its understandable enough