Need to vent - Im unsupported at work
Hey all, I need to vent about my work. I hope this resonates with someone as well, it would nice to know someone cam relate
Ive been in this compliance job for almost ten months now and I still feel like I don’t know shit. I came into this role with dispatch experience and very minor experience in compliance. They knew this and I was assured I would be trained. Really truly, i should have run away after the interview.
The interview consisted of testing me on my ability to read drivers hours of service logs, which i passed. That basically concluded the entire professional portion of the interview. After that, the only other question i was asked was if i liked cats, and we spent the hour talking about my supervisors cats and video games.
I was offered the job practically on the spot. Cool, i guess?
First day starts, and my supervisor is showing me around the terminal. She’s also telling me about all the people she doesn’t like (which was everyone minus two people) and why. It was very obvious who the problem was but I didn’t care, im there to work not make friends so i just brushed it off.
I didn’t have a computer, monitor, or desk chair for the entire first week. She blamed it on the person responsible for ordering that stuff but over time I’ve learned she does not take accountability well so i think it was her too.
Her training was beyond horrendous. It consisted of the most bare- bones explanations coupled with constant distractions about her cats, emails, phone calls, and personal stories with millions of photos involved. By the time we got back on task, i felt like i forgot everything. She also admitted to being too distracted because she was moving apartments, and one of her cats died a few months prior. I get it, losing a pet is hard so i felt bad. So she pawned me off with my very busy coworker. Who was too busy to train and also didn’t want to train and really wasn’t her responsibility.
So i was left knowing more about her personal life than work. I had to ask my coworker what that main objective even was because after a week and a half i STILL didn’t know. There was no agenda, time frame, not even SOPs to read.
I hadn’t hit my 90 days before she crashed the fuck out on me. I was making little mistakes that, granted, she did correct me on a couple times, but at this point i was so anxious and all over the place that i would miss these things constantly. She mostly cited that i wasn’t making lines bold a certain way on an excel sheet in a way that’s damn near not noticeable and proceeded to tell me that i was creating more work for her and my coworker and threatened me with a write up. She also said to ask if i had questions but that they’re also too busy so don’t. My coworkers gave her a lot of shit For that. She also has another cat that’s dying at this point.
I asked to sit with SOMEONE multiple times for help running these damn reports because i didn’t know how to interpret certain scenarios since i had no fucking training and no one would help me. I kept making mistakes, being too afraid to ask questions, and repeating the cycle. I’m still constantly second guessing myself.
Her cat has one foot in the grave by now and she works from home for an entire month. It was peaceful.
Since then it was just a mix of her crying over her cat at work, which i started having less and less sympathy for because she was keeping him alive despite him being miserable. He was diabetic and his kidneys were shutting down so he was dizzy and vomiting.
He was practically starving because he was feeling terrible. I felt so bad for that cat.
I may have to continue this in a pt two cause there’s so much more and im short on time.