Got paid yesterday. And after bills had 1k free an didn’t spend anything. 1 month ago I would be broke 30 minutes after getting paid and live off 5$ for 2 weeks. Eating stale crackers for daysss I’m enjoying even buying myself a lunch… still 60k in debt but it’s the small wins seeing a comma in my bank account
Day 16 gambling really doesn’t cross my mind. But I’m in the process of bankruptcy cause I simple cant afford all these loans and I had to send a withdraw slip of all my withdraws and 275,000$ in withdraws in 8 months was deposited into my bank account… an that hurts to see bro when I can even afford a chipotle bowl
From 17-23 I trained consistently went 5-0 amma and 2-0 kicking boxing over dozen Jiu jitsu competitions. What I wanted was to go pro. But I was also tired of struggling. So I got a blue collar lineman job working in the road M-F and next thing I know I’m 29… and finally got a cushion good job where I’m home every night. Single.. no kids. I just went to my first open mat Saturday as a purple belt. And surprisingly got a lot of taps and fell back in love from a 6 year break lol… but my question is it even worth it at my age turning 30 this year to try and get a couple more MMA bouts under my belt And try for a pro fight. Or did that ship sail.
Got myself into a lot of debt by bad choices and 2 months ago decided I was gonna file bankruptcy. Finally saved and found a good lawyer and actually done with paper work a filling this week.
But I haven’t paid this loan company in 2 months and I was ignoring their phone calls. And I gave them my work cell phone number not my company work number. But somehow they found it a called looking for me. And my manager teams me to let me know And now I’m embarrassed should I keep ghosting or tell them I’m filling bankruptcy
Today’s day 14 I’ve banned myself from all apps.
Total lost 100k
55k in gambling debts…
I feel better mentally but still dealing with the repercussions of my mistakes.. just had to pawn my Apple Watch for groceries. Wish I never found this disease I hope to look back in a year or 2 and be happy I beat this addiction