Scared of announcing intrusive thoughts at wedding
I have been suffering with horrid intrusive thoughts. The most recent is a childhood memory which is honestly nothing to even stress over. However, my dad’s wedding is this week and I have been looping since January that I’m going to stand up mid wedding ceremony and say the most unhinged things or announce all my childhood traumas. I have Valium and propranalol but I feel so sick and there is no way I can escape attending the ceremony. I have the same fears around team meetings etc and recently just quit my job for another that doesn’t involve team meetings. I also sat in the toilet at my best friends wedding during her ceremony for the same fear.
What can I do I’m petrified - it’s like I get a huge adrenaline surge and feel I’m going to do it (I never have in the past).
Had anyone else experienced this before - surely there’s a light at the end of this tunnel.