u/Jaynaydoo

It might be time to have to leave California due to strict restrictions on my fucking medications. Literally only need 20mg of oxycodone 3-4x daily as needed and my clonazapam for music spasms and cramps. My neurologist had me on three a day aswell and she was absolutely amaing and made me have hope so that meant alot too but now a year ago my insurance had issues with my clinic so i lost it all, my doctors snd my medicine and it got replaced with a pain dr trying to change me to suboxne and I hated it and it made me feel like shit so I stopped it after the month trial and put oils . I was doing so good man i could actually go with my brother and actually play 9 holes of golf. I was so fucking happy and now I’m down 30lbs, can hardly fucking move and do my morning routine which i now know was so important.. Streching the hell out of my body and Iliterally staying at a 6/10 mainly pain wise but now im just 15/10 pain wise and they keep sucking me dry emotionally. Im feeling like I just don’t care anymore and I want to move. All I’ve got is disability and I’m thinking where is the best spot to move for pain management help? 32yo male with a SCI and fucked up back along with cidp. I can walk but not well, no jumping no running nothing fun just sliding my feet but can’t wear slides so that ironic. Anyways just need to know in case I can’t ever get help. I’m on partnership aka basic insurance. Is there anything I can sign up for so I can see other doctors? Get plan b? Currently battling my sci doctor on my chart to get a new doctor for pain management. Idk I feel stuck. Happy sometimes but most of the time I’m fucked. Mainly happy if I can find someone with adhd medication that I can’t get even with such bad symptoms but with the other issues that I don’t get figured out and treated I’m scared to even go ask for some Adderall to help me actually forget about the pain and be able to sit and play some video games. I wish I could atleast do anything but I feel fucked man. Just looking for some guidance. My adhd add ocd became so bad after I got injured because before I could go for a run or shoot hoops now I’m just trying not to feel terrible mentally and physically. Any ideas? Thanks guys and I hope you’re all hanging in there. God bless the dead