I can make friends relatively easy despite being autistic and therefore socially awkward as hell and coming across as a bit aloof sometimes, most people seem to find it endearing, I guess. So people like me as a person, but despite all that I still feel different no matter what...
In a way it's sorta patronising sometimes, but also not? It's not like they're treating me like a literal child, but I am still treated a little different than others. I like who I am, and I like being the strange nerdy autistic guy, I guess lol. I just always feel a little alienated even if I'm appreciated.
I see my friends talking together, and it's like they're all closer, like they understand eachother. But with me It's almost like people sorta characterise me in a way? I try to show more serious sides of myself, but to no avail. It's like people don't trust me with serious stuff? Mind you I'm not acting goofy or "quirky" 24/7, so it's not that. Idk, it's just annoying how no matter what I do I always feel different...