Got called fat online, kid is being put on meds to help her lose weight, and I'm too fat to wear the suit I want for my wedding.
its been a series of punches, and im over it. I said something someone disagreed with online, so I got called fat, then today they're putting our eldest on meds to help her lose weight gained from medication, and I had to buy a suit I hate for my wedding because my measurements were too big to buy one I liked.
I hate it. I did this to myself and I apparently wont stop doing it to myself. I dont know whats wrong with me, why I cant just stop fucking eating. Im lazy, fat, pathetic, and im going to look like a hideous cow at the asile waiting for my bride. im going to look back at all my pictures and wonder why food was more important than looking good I pictures. why I couldn't just be better. im tired yall. im so tired.
maybe I wouldnt be so tired of I wasnt so fucking fat.