u/Irhaam5789

ive seen dr noor yapping about this alot so can somebody explain this a little more cus i dont fully understand it

so long story short i met my bsf in nursery, we were around 4 years and played together, hung out etc etc. Covid hit i dropped out of my school and focused on religious studies and still kept texting my friend. I tried to keep up the convos asking how are u hows ur studies hows everyone else? he just got drier and drier in convos and at one point i realised i was the one messaging him, starting the convo.He was posting stories going out with friends, i also tried to go with them but they said they alr went and were busy i said alr no worries, tried again got denied again. So my board exams were last year and i texted my bsf saying we r gonna meet after such a long time its gonna be fun cus we had the same location of exam hall. I meet him all excited and he just..had the most boring unfiltered expression u could say and muttered smth and walked away to the other friends of school. Now i felt so embarrassed i thought everyone saw me get ignored, i just took one long breath, gave my exams and headed home. Took a shower and realised i was the one starting the convos etc etc, never talked to him again to see if he would ever reply, he never did and still hasnt a year later, he did like my posts but who the fuck cares about that? idk i got over it im just posting ts cus i have not much interesting to share, maybe he just got bored of having a friend like me or he still thinks we r friends?

i was seeing alot of reels about people saying wAllahi and treating it as a joke, it literally means swearing to god but using it over and over again and continuously lying is just so idk the word but disappointing is coming to mind. I know most pakistanis and muslims dont swear to god as often because we have been taught by our parents so im thankful for that, i just saw a autotuned song with wAllahi and all these influencers saying it like cmon man. idk just wanted to write about this since i have some free time

so sometimes in my family smth happens or my rishtedar come to our home to stay like unannounced which annoys me since ik my room is going to be used to sleep, its not that i hate my rishtedar i just do not feel comfortable giving anybody my room for themselves my mom and dad are the only exception even i dont enjoy my siblings being in my room idk if u wanna judge me for being a rude BETA then wtv i was just thinking about this

anybody help me i have legit no clue