u/IntroductionFresh565

I’ve been nannying for over 10 years and this is the first time I’m experiencing a serious lack of connection between me and the child. He’s just over 1yo and I’ve been with him 2 days per week, 5 hours per day for 8 months. I know this is not a lot of time to spend per week with a child but I am with my other family (twins 18mo) two days per week, 7 hours per day and have such a strong relationship with them. The twins are so happy to see me and rarely fuss with me anymore whereas the single child is never happy to see me and pretty much fusses constantly, no matter what we’re doing. He just always seems slightly uncomfortable with me. Of course there is the rational part of me that understands he’s just a baby, and I’m not his mum, so it makes sense that he wouldn‘t be 100% with me all the time, but at the same time I feel very worn out by it. We can’t get through an activity with him (walking around in the grass at the park, playing on the playground, having lunch, reading books) without him getting upset, and when he cries he is most often screaming. I am scared to take him inside at the library or museums in our town because I’m worried he will just start crying. In the course of 8 months I haven’t been able to cultivate any sort of strong connection like I have with every other child this age I’ve cared for. I am starting to resent my days with him, which I feel horrible about. I’m not sure if anything can be done, maybe we’re just not a good fit or maybe it’s his age and he will grow out of the fussiness. I guess I am looking for advice on how to push through or to hear if anyone else has experienced this.