u/Intrepid_Respond6650

My life situation is not so good. I retrained in a new field (a masters course) and I am job searching. It is feeling very life and death because I resigned from my old role thinking i was so close to qualifying that I could make the transition, but found that the market is incredibly competitive.

I hoped that md would help with my cptsd and have had two doses - .25g and then .15g - with every 3 days. But my anxiety has gone through the roof. I think I was repressing it. Eating and sleeping very strongly affected. It hit about 12 hours after the first md.

I was hoping to take the edge off my cptsd symptoms - emptyness, reactivity, anxiety etc - and hoping for healing over time (counselling just did not help). But, I think that I have removed the defence to my terrifying situation without being in a safe situation to process it.

Has anyone encountered this?

Thanks!

I have cptsd flowing from childhood abuse. I have a lot of trouble with feelings of emptyness and emotional regulation.

I have done a lot of counselling, but it hasnt really helped. And I am very isolated - I have never been able to trust anyone - and the problems above dont help with relationships.

Apparently people without cptsd dont feel like this - that something inside is ‘enough’. And I suppose that I am really hoping to find that microdosing has helped people with similar experiences.

Thanks!