Embarrassingly bad at math
Hello, hello! I'm a year 9 [grade 8] student and for some reason, no matter how hard I try to get better at math, I just couldn't seem to improve. It's also came to the point where I can't even express help and need to my friends because of how CRIPPLINGLY shit I am.. (they make weird looks and tell me it's embarrassing themselves :<...)
I've always had trouble with fractions, turning fractions into decimals, some basic multiplication [6ths, 7ths, 8ths, 9ths], algebra, anything below the ones place values.. I cant even explain basic variables! I don't even know how to explain half the things I know properly or know how to explain them at all! (mathematically and not in normal wording I guess?)
I was just wondering if any of you guys here know any websites, apps, channels, etc. that could potentially help me with my very low learning level in math? I just feel as though I might not get very far in life with the lack of skill I have D: (which I most likely wouldn't)
P.S. I would REALLY, REALLY appreciate it if even a single person helps me out here, I'm very desperate for improving and don't know where and how to review and relearn everything🥹