I had an extremely rough week past just now… like a canon week. It had been filler nothing days for months, then I had to be in the plot all of a sudden…
First my grand jury duty. Very intense and controversial this last Monday, me and one other juror agreed on something that the other ten… didn’t. Awful stuff.
Then I saw you on my bosses page again. I should just block him I guess, but I can’t help enjoying seeing you sometimes. Still haven’t reached out like I promised.
The other stuff is…. Weird and wild. Someone spreading the worst possible rumor about me, and then learning more context about what happened at our old job… further evidence I shouldn’t be as much of a pariah as I’m labeled as, but I won’t desperately defend myself and look more guilty in the process.
Just, I wish I had someone I could talk to about this. I lost all my friends from this and I just don’t understand now that I have more context. I wish I could vent to you, but who knows what you see me as. Probably the worst.
I love you even still. Dumb as it is.
Yours, M.