Diagnostic Exams Result
My motivation has always been flactuated ever since I started reviewing for boards, and it went literally DOWNHILL after the diagnostic exams.
Honestly, I’m self-aware that I’ll have low score because I took the DE for the sole purpose of assessing which area should I focus more in studying….So yeah, after the exams, I’m pretty much okay and relieved.
BUT, when r/g/0 started posting the TOP 10 scorers for the Homeblock review. I’ve learned that their scores can range from a 100-90’s & knowing that mine’s probably wouldn’t reach the mid 50s (give or take) — IT TRIGGERED ME A LOT. Not because I’m jealous, or competitive, but because I felt SEVERELY LEFT BEHIND despite studying for a while now.
I’ve been stuck into rumination because of this, and I feel so unmotivated doing my reviews….
Now, I’m still questioning my capacity to pass the boards this year, and its slowly draining my soul away.
😞