Screwed up an audition
I was auditioning for a school musical today and literally everything was going well. I was the only girl in the school that fit the description, I am the most qualified (i take 3 acting classes a week for different acting disciplines and also singing lessons) and i spent the last month preparing for this audition. I did everything right. Practiced the script, songs, character profile everything.
Then today the audition slot i got was directly in the middle of the school day and i wasn’t able to do warm ups before it as the teachers said i was disturbing the others and it would be too loud. I they didn’t use the right track that i sent them either and then when i opened my mouth to sing i didn’t even recognize the sounds coming out. Istg i sounded like Carlotta in Phantom after Erik messes with her. For once in my life I’m not even being dramatic, the team wouldn’t even make eye contact with me because it was so bad. I wont even get a secondary character it was so bad.
This weekend I over did it at a vocal showcase and so my throat has been sore the last few days but i still could sing and worst of all not even an hour later i tried again and i sang it perfectly again. They don’t believe i can sing at all so theres no benefit of the doubt happening.
Im well aware that not being a principal role in a school production is not the end of the world but i was the only soon to be senior who auditioned for the role and it should’ve been nearly a guarantee and am so angry at myself for messing it up