Me and my friend hung out last night but I didn’t tell him it was the last time
Me and my good buddy Cameron, who I’ve known for almost 20 years now hung-out tonight. Felt like a classic boys night, he picked me up, let me shower at his place, and we had a few beers and played some NCAA on PlayStation. Honestly, it was the best night I had in awhile.
When I asked him to hang out with me, he was extremely excited to hear from me. At first I planned on venting to him about how rough life has gotten for me, and how bad my mental has gotten, but I didn’t want to dampen the mood so I just didn’t say anything about it. I’m currently homeless, without family, and living in my car that doesn’t start, and he’ll allow me to shower when he can, and sometimes he’ll bring me a sandwich, but he doesn’t know how suicidal I am.
But man, last night was awesome. He’s really my only friend I have in the area, he’s been there for me when my mom died, when I’ve lost my job, he’s just always tried to help me to the best of his capabilities and tonight was great. It actually made me forget about my problems for a bit. I can’t remember the last time I’ve had a drink, so 6 beers really put me through, and just laughing about how bad I am at NCAA, because I use to be really good at NCAA/Madden and it was just an all around good time.
I wanted to talk to him about everything that’s been bothering me but I couldn’t. I plan on sending him a text shortly though, before I do it and hopefully he’s asleep by then. Life’s rough, but having buddies like him always make the hard times a bit easier.
Best night in probably at least a year.