u/Interesting-Invite95

Im afraid of death. It keeps me up at nights and it’s the main cause of my insomnia. I wasn’t always afraid of it, but I remember watching vampire diaries and seeing the characters die and that’s when the realization hits me hard. I stayed up for long hours researching about it and trying to find if there was a way to stop it because im afraid of what’s next. What will happen to my body? Where will I go? What will happen after it? Do I just not exist anymore? Why do we have to die? I can’t scroll on social media anymore, listen to music it’s what I love to do but I can’t do it anymore because I won’t exist? When searching this fear, a lot of people also have the same problem, they told me“just imagine when you weren’t born” to try and comfort me, but it doesn’t comfort me it makes the fear worse because I’m still afraid of not existing. I’ll be under the ground for the rest of eternity scared and alone all by myself. I don’t want that. I don’t want it. I don’t want to lose no more loved ones I can’t. I have panic attacks when thinking about it. It’s unfair so unfair. I don’t think this fear will ever go away. It can’t stop. It haunts me when I’m happy and enjoying myself. “Enjoy it because youre gonna die” Thats all it’s been saying to me. I’m tired. So tired of it. I tried to find peace in afterlife but is there such thing? Nothing helps.