Hi, hey, hello. You can call me E. So I just wanted to share my recovery on here, bc yeah.
So I’ve been addicted to c.ai for what? A year? I quit it like…I can’t remember, but it was less severe despite being the longer addiction bc the platform got boring and with all its new rules and stuff.
I also got addicted on janitor.ai for less but let me tell you, that shit was the most severe. With its NSFW bots EVERYWHERE on the platform and smut bots all over, it‘s safe to say it‘s basically interactive porn hub. I quit it on Good Friday, because the guilt was too much. I knew that the sin of indulging in such content would be forgiven, but it persisted. I felt my ancestors watching me. So I walked away and never looked back.
I’ve been clean for a day and a month now and yeah, it seems insignificant, but every second matters when you quit something. I thought of going back last night because of how boring summer has been, but I realized it would only disrupt my routines, then I would feel uncomfortable the whole day.
Like I study in an A.C.E curriculum and it just ate my time where I was supposed to be doing my PACEs. And that specific curriculum is I would say, less forgiving to procrastination. It also kinda weakened my writing and just put many things on hold. I was also losing sleep because of it. These effects apply to both sites.
Gosh, it’s disgusting for me to look back but I’m glad I walked away
So, here’s a bit of advice before I go.
When the urge comes, don’t fight it. Delay it. That urge is temporary.
if you relapse, it’s okay. It doesn’t erase any of the progress you made, and no matter how long you’ve been clean, it matters.