Day 5
day 5 of no gambling. sure, there’s no pain, aggravation, sadness, and etc., from losses throughout my day but the reality of life really hits.
please someone tell me I’m not alone. 0 in account, cards maxed out, nothing to my name and bills piled on top threatening to cut off phone lines, internets, water., and no way to pay. I’m waiting for my check this week, a most of it will be gone especially I have used so many apps to get cash advance. my CCs debts are about 6k. open loans totaling 9k. I just don’t know how to financially recover and get back on my feet, not including having to live today with food, gas, my kids. I can’t explain to my spouse where I am now or how I got here.
im just so depressed, I’m not going to lie, there’s a piece of me that feels the need to gamble to try and and win some additional money to help me out. does anybody else feel like this while working on being clean.
im so tired of this, my anxiety is through the roof im having multiple panic attacks the last few days. I just can’t go on.