I’ve been told many times that I’m rude. Because of this I’ve hurt several peoples. Yesterday, someone left me on the spot. I had few flashbacks where I hurt them with words. How do I stop this?? I don’t talk much but when I talk they’re gone. I have hurt my cousins, friends and family just with words.
How do I fake? How do I lie?
I can’t think outside truth, I js bomb them. Cant keep within me.
I’ve always been insecure about our financial status, it was just enough to eat and pay the mortgage. Being born in lower middle class and knowing the condition of family, I can’t always ask for money. Cloth sources were dashain, unexpected birthday gift and tihar. I’d get scolded for asking money so I didnt bother to ask further.
My personality was set under these restrictions. Barely got any friends, they were well off. I couldnt match them. This in result developed as an insecurity. Time passes by but I couldn’t get over this.
Right now I’m on early twenties, I’ve not dated nor approached anyone. My insecurity kicks in everytime I think its time to have a other half. I,m way immature in love. Since childhood, I always thought to have a girlfriend only after being financially stable. This might take few more years, by then it’d be difficult to find a girl. Have seen lots of guys being stranded here in Nepal. If you’re abroad you’ve got free pass of marriage. Youd even find 10 year younger than you lol. Not that I want 10yr younger, just giving an example.
Thanks! Would love to know how you manage this sorta things.