Homeschooling is killing my will to live
This is is our first year homeschooling. I have a 3 year old and 6 year old. We did kindergarten. The entire process has been extremely stressful from trying to choose curriculums and following through with activities everyday.
My son is doing great. He started this year unable to blend CVC words, and is now reading on a fourth grade level. Also tested for math on third grade level.
I however, am struggling. I wake up every morning not wanting to get out of bed. My children are in constant demand mode. We’ve tried different behavioral management strategies but the bottom line is that the treat me like a personal butler. They “want want want” every second of the day. I tell them no, and the ask again. (Even though I never give in- they don’t give up hope that the next time there will be a yes).
We’ve tried more strict or structured routines, but my husband works variable hours so some weeks he’s out of state and I’m solo parenting. Other weeks he’s home all the time and completely wrecked any flow or structure we had.
I feel sub human at this point. I don’t have a single moment to exist without someone requesting something from me. I know there is value to homeschooling, but most days I find myself questioning “what is the point” in regards to motherhood. I feel like a glorified water boy most days.
Has anyone had similar feelings and found useful coping mechanisms or a way out of this mindset?
Open to any criticism or advice. 🫠