u/Impossible_String183

I’m 17, and have worn a full face of makeup every single day consecutively (false lashes, huge heavy eyeliner, eyeshadow, highlight, heavy nose contour, heavy face contour, foundation etc etc) since I was around 10 years old. It is exhausting. I am exhausted. I can’t even walk 10 seconds out my house without makeup. Even if it’s 3am. I have very extremely close friends who I’ve been like sisters with for years. They’ve never seen me without makeup. I can’t even look at myself without makeup, I am a complete catfish. I feel like I’m wearing a mask. I have been addiontionally diagnosed with body dismorphic disorder (BDD) for context. I feel like I’m wearing a mask and I can’t live without my mask I. Am. So. Exhausted. I litterally got kicked out of 2 schools that I really really wanted to stay in because I made so many friends because I litterally refused to take off my makeup n lashes. I physically can’t 😭help? Any advice? How am I going to live like this for the rest of my life? I have a partner, and I have to wake up 30 minutes before him every day so I can put on my full face. I’ve been with him for a year. I’m going to have to do this for the rest of my life , I’m tired.