How to balance your"life purpose"?
I feel I have an unhealthy attachment to what I would consider my life purpose. I am so attached to filmmaking and efforts of wanting to help others through this medium as my life's purpose... that I am not as present as I could be with my partner. I believe part of my interest in film is healthy passion, part of it is an unhealthy attachment... I spend nearly every day thinking of it and making nearly all my plans around it and initially picked up this interest as a way to use art to make sense of my best friends passing. I try to be with my partner but it does stop me being fully present. My other sense of purpose I do feel is to marry this woman I love and have children. I feel like letting go of film (possibly for a while) and then coming back to it without the anxious attachment of something to fill the void of my life would help... I think it would be needed individuation to balance these two, if I can tell in some way I am unhealthily attatched to this medium does it just have to go? I am young and don't want to waste opportunity distancing myself from this format I care so much about. I just feel lost and a bit hollow trying to totally neglect it... is there any ways to understand this from a Jungian lens?