u/ImpossibleAd5029

26F, I had a bad panic disorder, digestive issues, and depression last year. I live alone abroad. Those days were hell before I got the right treatment from a psychiatrist. I was unable to go to school for months. Now that I'm back, I'm facing consequences; my scholarship could be terminated due to missing days, graduation is going to be extended, I had to do a lot of negotiation with the school and my teachers, hopefully nobody is expelling me. I told my family and asked for financial assistance, only to be scolded back; "why didn't you work?" "who tf misses school do you have no responsibility?"; so much kicking me alone into the corner. I feel like I've failed everyone. Or everyone have failed me. I'm really depressed of all this today. My life is so fragile it feels it could end any minute. I'm afraid to die or else would have already.