u/Impossible-Soft-5413

What is the app to find meetings at? I really need one and everything online seems not accurate

I am so ashamed of myself of doing what I am doing taking Adderall, Xanax (lately), beta blocker, and alcoholic. I am trying to maintain my 9-5 as normal as possible, but fighting this demon and going through a breakup. I know I need help but when I am sober completely I think that problem never existed. Idk what to do, but I am just truly sad. I feel empty and too ashamed to tell my family.