weed & sex addiction
i never really thought i had a problem abusing drugs or even that i had a sex addiction. Though, in the past months of me living with my fiancé & our daughter i have noticed how bad it has gotten. i have a really good job opportunity, one that could change our lives and finally get us out of the slump that we’ve been in for the past year or so. Only problem is i can’t stop smoking weed. The worst part about it is it’s so easy for me to access since we’ve been living in oklahoma. As for the sex addiction i’m used to having sex with multiple women at least 5 out of the 7 days of the week and when i wasn’t having sex i think about sexual things. Recently i’ve gotten into the cuckold and hot-wife side of reddit and it’s honestly been the worst thing that could’ve happened. Its all i think about and all i look at on my phone and i’ve expressed this to my wife & she did try her best to fulfill my fantasies but she just wasn’t comfortable with it all. Which i had no issue with at all i just felt bad for maybe weirding her out but we start working on the sexual aspect of our relationship. We dabbled a little in roleplay and her dressing up or even mutual masturbation but i still seem to always want more and more. It honestly feels like i’m losing my mind and i feel terrible for my fiancé & my daughter because i feel like i’m failing them everyday. Especially my fiancé i’ve put her through so much i just want to love her how she deserves to be loved. please any advice is more than appreciated.
(sorry about the grammar and punctuation i’m all over the place right now lmao)