Regrets
Touchy subject and I will probably get hate for it.
Does anyone else regret having their baby or is it a normal feeling?
I want to start off by saying I love my baby, I care for my baby, and I hate that I’m feeling this way about him but I’m so much happier away from him. Everytime I have to take care of him my stomach goes into knots, I get aggravated, and my stress levels are through the roof. I find every way to be away from him when there’s someone else here. I miss being child free and sometimes wish I wouldn’t have made the choice to continue. He’s almost 3 months old and nothing has changed it’s only gotten worse. Everything is about him now. I barely have time to myself unless someone is watching him and even then I still have to intervene because he has health issues and some people don’t know how to properly take care of him. I thought I was ready for this but I’m not. I barely sleep because he decides night time is the perfect time to scream every 30min like he hasn’t eaten in days, diaper changes are like getting stabbed in the abdomen, sleeping is his mortal enemy unless it’s in the car seat or swing, and strangers are his best friends. He got admitted into the hospital for a week and from the nurses notes he was the perfect baby. No crying, didn’t fight feeds or diaper changes, even loved getting a bath. But the night he comes home he screams nonstop for 3 hours straight. I barely eat anymore and getting up after actually sleeping is hell. Idk. Am I a bad mom? Is this normal?