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Pata hai aaj kya hua - Aaj randomly meri ex ka facetime call aaya… 3 saal baad.
Thoda hesitation tha, but picked it up.

Shuru mein sab normal tha — “kya chal raha hai”, “life kaisi hai”… that usual safe conversation. She was at home, kitchen mein lunch bana rahi thi, pura casual vibe.

Aur phir meri aadat beech mein aa gayi.

Meri nazar gayi uske shorts pe… aur honestly mujhe ignore karna chahiye tha. But nahi, maine bol diya — “arre tere shorts mein hole hai…”

Bas.
Wahi pe game over.

Ekdum se silence. Woh awkward wala… jisme dono ko samajh nahi aata kya bolna hai.
3 saal baad first proper conversation… aur maine woh bhi spoil kar diya in under 2 minutes.

Usne kuch bola nahi, main bhi topic change karne ki koshish karta raha… but vibe already shift ho chuki thi.

Call ke baad bas ek hi thought aa raha tha —
log badalte hain ya sirf situations badalti hain, aadatein wahi rehti hain?

Ab hasu ya regret karu, samajh nahi aa raha 😭

Anyone else feel like life in your 30s is just a mix of “I’ve figured things out” and “what the hell is going on” on alternate days? 😄

Like one day you’re giving solid life advice to someone, and the next day you’re staring at the ceiling at 2am thinking about one awkward thing you said in 2014.

Also, how are we all just casually dealing with responsibilities now? Bills, health, relationships, career… and still expected to reply “all good” when someone asks how life is going.

And don’t even get me started on energy levels — mentally I want to do 10 things, physically I’m like “let’s sit down for 5 mins” and suddenly it’s 2 hours.

Somewhere between growing up and healing, you realise peace > everything… but also good food > peace sometimes.

Anyway, just a random thought dump. If you relate, we’re all just figuring it out together 🤝